These symptoms are real. This is no joke. 

What I thought will be happening perhaps in another decade have already happened. 

Doctor said just let the nature takes its course. Keep healthy lifestyle, take vitamin D and multivitamins that contains some calcium. Mama told me this is natural process and just embrace it. 

I hope I can pull through ... What I am feeling and how is it going at this phase, that's a story for another day.

 Penawar

Here I am again.

The place where my heart and soul tasted pure promises of forever. 

But also the place that witnessed my moments of complete despair.

I left here completely shattered. 

This time...

I shall be creating new memories. I have to. Else, living here will be tormenting.

 No this is not a sad story, nor a pitiful one.

This is a journey towards gratefulness and contentment. This is me paving the way in search of wisdom and faith.

In the midst of sobbing and whimpering... I realized the blessings in everything that happened. 

It is fine that it doesn't flow anymore. That it is not a flaw that I dont have it anymore. That it is going to be ok and I will pull through.

Yet, this is not a sad story.  

 It's sad that I can't reach it anymore.