There is no other way, other than forward. 

You shouldn't look back, you're not going that way.

Hukum alam sememangnya begini. Detik yang berlalu tak akan bisa berulang kembali.

Demi masa...sesungguhnya manusia itu benar² dalam kerugian kecuali yang beriman dan mengerjakan amal soleh... 

Cekalkan hati, kuatkan semangat to be a better person yang lebih beriman. 

 The question that I have been desperate for an answer all these while is no longer bothersome to me.

I was the problem. With me, everything was a struggle. Every scene seemed like a battlefield. Loving me was not easy, a lot of convincing needed.

I demanded and begged for passion, effort and attention too much. I needed to be convinced most of the time. It was overwhelming. It was suffocating. I know.

So when there's a love that was easier, peaceful, calmer, and needed no convincing, that's what was chosen. 

It took me years to understand this... An expensive lesson, a lifelong lesson...

I made peace with this. 

 Tujuh belas tahun...

It shook me to the core. It changed me...

Something that I don't think I can erase anymore. What's there will remain ...I guess.

 Time for packinngg..... 

And off we go to another adventure. 

 Went skiing again and hurt the knee. Haih.

Unable to turn, loss control of speed and fell on the wrong side.

I've been limping since few days, knee is still swollen and stiff to walk and bend. It's subsiding though, so hopefully back to myself in a day or two. 

Need to get my feet back for another trip next week. 

🙏🏻

 I would give anything to be there again...to feel that again...to have it all, again.