Devastated

 This is beyond frustration. Worst worst worsssttt feeling ever. 

I have foreseen that I will be the scapegoat after the conversation with my boss. Fighting for good place, rating and ranking in a pool of people that are more visible and aligned in their objectives. They see me as an outlier - but not in giving an advantage to me in this case. Despite over here at project, they appreciate and recognized my work and deliverables, kat tempat sendiri aku memang dianak tirikan just because I'm in a different set up and environment. Furthermore this is my last deliberation with them. 

Dah nampak dah siapa yang akan jadi mangsa. 

So today, first time in a lonnngggg time, I broke down in tears about work.